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Fate's not around, the lucks all gone.
Don't ask me what's wrong, ask me what's right
and imma tell you what's life."
My Troubled Thoughts.
So much has happened in such a short amount of time, and the amount of thoughts that have crawled into my mind is simply amazing. We've all had those thoughts wondering what the point of living is when we're put here just to die, I know I have, but there are so many things to live for, so much knowledge still yearned to be gained, or is there? How can we be sure of anything, that anything we actually believe in is true? Experience showed me that my eyes can't be trusted, so do experiences prove anything at all? I admit, I might have some trust issues, but trust is just a luxury I can't afford. I've watched myself get hurt over the same mistakes, but still I continue to let go, forgive and live, but if I've had to forgive the second time around, did I really forgive the first time around? Maybe I didn't. Sometimes it feels as if my life's obstacles run past me, and then catch up to me later on, all at the same time, and I can't help but fall to my knees because the pressure is to much to bare. Trust. What does it actually mean? I might have had a glimpse of it in past occurences, but I've seem to lost my grasp on the meaning. How many times can you forgive a person, before they realize they keep making the same mistakes? What if they never realize it? Do I keep letting myself get hurt in hopes for the best? People change, it's true, some in good ways and some in bad, and some changes are just too hard to cope with, it's too drastic, as if meeting someone new. Doubts; it keeps me thinking. Is every word a person says true or lies? I would never know, or am I too ignorant to tell the difference? Or am I just denying the fact that I can't handle the truth? A person can say one thing and then can easily take it back, I would know. I was the type to never get attached to anyone, not take things seriously, I didn't know how to love, until he showed me how. With him I learned so many things, that love really can be an amazing experience, that love is worth all the fights in the world, and especially that he was worth the pain, but I've also learned that even those who are closest to you, can turn their backs on you when their back is what you held on to. Love can easily turn into hate when you least expect it. If you think things are perfect, you would just assume that the other person feels the same way, but how good of an actor can a person be? To be wearing a mask, a disguise blinding me from the truth, and now I see. I can't let myself go back down there, it was almost impossible just to get back on my feet and start breathing again. These words, I've heard it all before, these words, do they have meaning to you? I've watched myself get hurt over the same mistakes, but still I continue to let go, forgive and live, how many times will I go through this cycle? How many...On Tuesday, June 2, 2009 at 10:57 PM
Melanie V. Romero | FHC Graduate | Valentine Baby ♥ | SXIV AJOV ♥ | Happy & Satisfied .
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